sad girl core

Im reading a book, making a pudding, listening to music, but nothing seems to work, I still feel like shit and I'm afraid this will continue for the next days. Christmas is coming and I have to reunite with my family and don't want them to see me like this. I hope I can recover soon.  Dad I love u. And miss u. I'm sorry.

I really don't have any kind of energy or strength anymore, I feel like I reach a new level of depression everyday and it's exhausting and tiring and painful and so so sad and I don't know what to do with myself. I don't even care about caps lmao I just needed to write about this today because I've been feeling like shit the whole day. So many emotions and reasons I feel bad, my father is dead and I miss him so much when I finally stop avoiding the memories and think about our moments together and everything he did for me and how shitty I was with him and everything I could do to make him feel better and I didn't, I just wish I could say sorry for the last time but that's not possible. And I'm here laying in bed in the dark alone crying in silence with my face all red and wet and with my body shaking wishing I could talk to someone about this but then I remember I'm not able to because I hate to tell others about my problems at the same t...

"It only takes two lonely people To fuck love up and make it evil It only takes a drop of evil To fuck up two beautiful people" daaaaamn she really wrote those lyrics kinda accurate ngl she spilled 👀 speaking from experience maybe lmao people become insane sometimes when they fall in love dude or idk if i should call it love, obsession fits it better because i dont think love should be like that ? and some days i think about how cute would be to have a romantic relathionship with someone again but then i remember these things + my past relationships, how i felt/how they ended and hear from people having terrible love experiences and think nah man im good

not a depressing post today just me being a random bitch on facebook im sorry  the guys saying damn lady whyyyy, whats wrong with itttttt whats wrong with wanting more johnny or kano posts lmao stfu 

Some things change but they don't get better I'm so sick and so tired of trying to tell them that I'll never do it, no I'll never make it alone But pay no mind, it fades in time Don't we all? 😔

  this place is so depressing i want to say something more cheerful but i cant think about anything lmfao the only good thing i can say right now is that music helps me a lot when i feel bad-sad-anxious-like shit, it relaxes me so much and relieves me in almost a dreamy way and its crazy and cute at the same time its super nice because when i listen to for example the hana and durante eps i totally forget about how miserable i am lol and how bad i used to feel minutes ago. its very helpful and refreshing. i wish i didnt need to listen to music to stop feeling like crap lmao but it is what it is and i have to live with myself this way  oh and another cute thought that crossed my mind: my best friend told me my ex boyfriend is happily in love with his new girlfriend and i genuinely felt so happy for him because he is such a good dude, he truly deserves the best life can offer lol so cheesy but still, he is kind and a beautiful person. he has been the least toxic partner ive ever...

why is everything so confusing maybe im just out of my mind avril said lmao  well i just came to write about how im feeling right now because i feel so shitty and i want this to stop immediately because im stupid  im sorry i need this horrid pain in my chest to go away asap, cant deal with this shit anymore, i already have to carry with a lot of shit from the past on my shoulders, more shit? no please my english is hideous lolol and honestly ive been thinking about this a lot lately: why some people like me? like, the very few that does it, why? because im an annoying cunt * and i cant find any reason that explains it, im not a likable person at all * a nathan young from misfits reference - timestamp 01:17,  i miss him everyday