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this place is so depressing i want to say something more cheerful but i cant think about anything lmfao

the only good thing i can say right now is that music helps me a lot when i feel bad-sad-anxious-like shit, it relaxes me so much and relieves me in almost a dreamy way and its crazy and cute at the same time


its super nice because when i listen to for example the hana and durante eps i totally forget about how miserable i am lol and how bad i used to feel minutes ago. its very helpful and refreshing. i wish i didnt need to listen to music to stop feeling like crap lmao but it is what it is and i have to live with myself this way 


oh and another cute thought that crossed my mind: my best friend told me my ex boyfriend is happily in love with his new girlfriend and i genuinely felt so happy for him because he is such a good dude, he truly deserves the best life can offer lol so cheesy but still, he is kind and a beautiful person. he has been the least toxic partner ive ever had and im so grateful for our times together, i am of course a mess and he deserved someone better, i really hope she can make him happy and doesnt hurt him like i did






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