life's a moment




It's such a cliché when we say that life's too short. That doesn't make it less true unfortunately. 
I've seen how my father died from one day to another. How he went to bed and the next day he woke up thinking about having breakfast but instead he had a stroke and died. I've seen his last WhatsApp connection while he was almost dead and it was like 8 hours ago. He was alive 8 hours ago at that time. So yes, life's too short. He wanted to travel alone. He wanted to visit a lot of places. He wanted to go to a lot of concerts. He wanted to have a lot of delicious meals. He wanted to visit his friends. He wanted to see me. He wanted to live for a couple more years. He couldn't.
So every day I live, I have this mindset of doing what I really like. Doing what I love. Fuck everything, if it's something that makes me happy, that doesn't hurt me, doesn't hurt anyone, let's go then. 
I can't comprehend that are people that don't think the same way. I can't believe there are people that are not together with their special person that loves them back. Why? We have this moment. We're not hurting anybody. We're good people. We are in love. We want to love. We want to be happy. Why is that not possible? I could be dead in a second. Will you miss me? Cause I'll miss you for sure. But I'm the one fighting and trying. It's pointless anyways. Maybe it's too recent, but I love you and I want to be next to you, because I don't want to lose time. I don't want to live life like this. Life's a moment and I want it with you.

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