can't be bad

I want to love you properly

I want to take care of you

I want to protect you from people or things that might hurt you

I want to take care of you when you're sick

I want to give you gifts for your birthday

I want to give you gifts just because you make me feel happy and loved 

I want to give you gifts because you deserve it, because you're lovely, kind and full of love 

I want to sleep by your side 

I want to stay awake while you sleep, I want to watch you sleeping

I want to go places with you, I want to search new places constantly to visit with you

I want to stay at home with you

I want to show you everything I accomplished while you weren't here

I want to kiss you in your forehead, your lips, your cheeks

I want to pamper you everyday

I want to touch your hair slowly with my pale fingers

I want to make you laugh, I want to make you happy

I want to make you feel like you're enough

I want to make you understand that you're on my mind all the time

I want to make you understand that you've been making me the happiest since day one

I want to let you know that I miss you every second we're apart from eachother

I want to let you know I'm horribly in love with you and there's nothing I can do to forget you

I want to let you know that I keep listening to sad songs and crying because you're not here

I want to let you know that I keep listening to your favourite music and crying because it reminds me of you

I want to let you know I've been looking for cool things to give you as a present for your birthday even though we're not together anymore

I want to hug you forever in silence

I want to be a part of your life forever, as a friend at least 

I want to let you know that nothing can change the way I love you, the way I care about you, the way you make me feel, the way I miss you when you leave me. Not even your insecurities, your negative thoughts, your bad experiences or whatever happened in our past. 

You are the man I can't take out of my mind. You are the man that came to my life and changed everything. Now I can't do what I used to do, I can't get over you easily like I used to do with dudes before. It was all mental, I used to think. I had my methods, useless now. I can't forget you. I don't want to forget you, I want to love you. That can't be bad.