the perfect day

this shits depressing lol

does it even exist such a thing? a perfect day, who knows, i think there are lucky people but im not one of them.

a perfect day for me would be a rainy grey day, or even a snowy and cold one, so so cold. a grey day. friday. turning the alarm off, brushing my teeth, taking a warm shower, brushing my hair, dressing up with cute clothes, drinking a cup of hot tea with a croissant or a sweet toast. putting my warm coat on, my big scarf and leaving home, going to work, while the cold wind smashes my face and turns my nose red. working my ass off to get paid decent at the end of the month, because im poor and i have to be realistic even if im dreaming about a perfect day. finishing work, going to the supermarket, buying lots of fruits and fish, and yogurt because i love that shit, strawberry flavored. cant forget the chocolates. 

coming back home, taking out my shoes and coat, taking another warm shower, playing videogames, watching some movie or serie, making a delicious dinner with orange juice, because i love it and i dont drink alcohol that often. brushing my teeth and going to bed. exhausted and thinking about where can i go the next vacations. japan or south korea maybe. i need to try the japanese fluffy cheesecake before dying.

thats what i want, only that, a quiet and cute life, just me, chillin. instead of that i have shit, and then shit, and more shit if its not enough lmao. and im not even the person with the worst life in the world, im aware of the privileges i have but lemme say 2020 killed my soul and all my motivations. im not done trying to have a better life but its so hard to leave bed sometimes, because your brain says "whats the point?" 







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