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thats what im listening to right now while it rains like never 

covid cases are rising again and my heads exploding because of it, im fucking tired of this pandemic and the people that doesnt care about an entire countrys situation. my future depends on it, i really need this shit to end but vaccines are nowhere to be found and people are stupid af.

i just listen to the music and wish everything will be okay again.






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