sad
I had to come back to this because I find that writing about my emotions and what's happening makes me feel a little better. Suddenly I almost had everything I wanted. I had good friends, a healthy family, a place for myself, no more sharing it with family or friends. And finally met a cute guy I liked and he liked me back, it was so awesome at first. We started to see eachother and we started a relationship where everything was beautiful. We spent nights together ordering food, watching movies together, going to sleep at 6 am, planning to go to places together, both being so confident and connecting so good but now that's in the past because of his thoughts. He never wanted a serious relationship with me, he never trusted in me, he says he's insecure about us but if he only knew how much i like him, if he only knew... How happy I was when I started talking to him, when I thought "I fucking finally met a decent guy, a man who's really worthy of meet an...