sad girl core

It's me again, crazy.  August is the worst month of the year for me.  Immediately starts and I feel terribly sad, uncomfortable, annoyed, like if something bad is going to happen. Well some bad things happened in August. And I don't want to think about it, I don't want to remember, I don't want to be sad, I want to be happy, I want to continue in this state of mind where I'm good and laughing and in peace all the time because now life is good and it smiles at me.  I don't want to confront the sad memories.  I miss you both, tho. 

I'm not like super super happy but I've been feeling so much better lately. I even forgot to post new entries here because I'm always busy working or doing some home chores or simply hanging out with my coworkers ( friends! If you ask me ) so sometimes I joke about it and say ironically that life smiles at me but I really think it's kinda true. I feel free, in peace, a bit nostalgic about some things but it's not that serious. I feel good. I feel motivated, curious about things again, I remember I was so depressed I even lost curiosity about things and that honestly wasn't me! But now it looks like everything is starting to fall into place and it's so cute I start to feel emotional. I feel like I've been in such at a bad place for so many time that seeing myself like this now feels unrealistic, crazy, untrue but amazing!  I even used to not have interest in anyone, and now I'm doing crazy things I barely recognize myself, I used to have i...