crazy thoughts
I am so confused. I am missing him , but I'm not seeing him anymore. I'm seeing him instead, and he seems nice, pretty much actually, but something feels off. He seems too good to be real. I think he's a liar. And maybe he's acting like that because we're not official, but I feel like if we start something serious I wouldn't be able to trust him , so that would be chaotic. I am not a toxic person, I never was. But I don't know why but I feel like I would be if I get to be with him . Such a shame because I like him a lot, he's attractive as fuck. He's funny, interesting, cute, but I don't know why, but I feel it's everything a mask. I feel like he's hiding his real self. I don't believe a word he says and it's sad. So I'm so confused. I'm trying to be with other guys too so I don't feel so attached to him like what he's doing, he's seeing other girls. Honestly, I have no idea what I'm doing....